the term boredom has become engrained in my vocabulary.

but surely there must be something you can do to illeviate the pain of nothingness. to illeminate the hurt that comes with watching yourself age.

i dont want to wake up one day and find that my better days are passed.

if this is such a big city then why do i feel so alone?

perhaps pity is becoming engrained in my vocabulary as well.

ill find something to do. it just hasn't hit me yet that this is permanent.

but for now, what i'm going to do is smoke a cigarette, drink a beer, and ride my wave of self-doubt.

21 September, 2002 - 02:38

behind - ahead