i was looking for a bank which i could transfer my lack of funds in the new city i'm moving to in less than a week, when one of those pop up adds for a dating service came up. sometimes i like to click on them, just to see if they have a gay section and if they do, how many posting there are (to my surprise this particular pop up had a pretty substantial queer page).

i was perusing the ads, embarassed by the way some dykes describe themselves, when the hetero-normativity of it all hit me smack in the face. this is what we've come to. we've faught so long and so hard all these years for a fuckin page on some crappy singles site. we're offically heterosexuals. we think we've finally gotten some equality, but really, what we have now is less than what we've started with. at least before stonewall we had a culture, a raw underground politic brewing, a desire for justice. that's not to say those things are completely dead within us, it's just to say that we're being washed away by the main stream. we want to show everybody that we're just like all you straight people...but we're not. we're queer. and that means a whole lot more than free love...or at least it used to.

we need to start again. maybe have a sit-in at jerry falwell's house, or boycott domino's or return to city hall in san francisco and stonewall in nyc to reclaim our origins and our respect for them. maybe we should start off with just a little step like these. or maybe we should enter with a bang. i'm not sure. but something has to change.

cause i for one am sick of being a subservient queer. i for one am sick of being a hetero homo.

much love

h

29 May, 2002 - 19:18

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