wow. my very first entry.

i've been thinking a lot about my generation. The border kids between X and why. i've been thinking about what it means to be in the middle, forever torn betwen two sides. ambivalent. i think our life at the crossroads is entirely to blame for our bipolarization. on one hand we have Xer's, who didn't disembowel their revolution for a pair of running shoes (ten points to anyone who catches that reference), they just went straight to wall street to invest in nike. Not a sell out because they never stepped in. and on the other hand, we have WHY. ah yes, why. The first generation to grow up with a computer. the kids who were playing excitebike before they could ride their own. They try to be active, but their naturally passive nature prevents them from creating too much of an uproar. To quote oasis (forgive me-i just heard the song last night at a bar)they want to start a revolution from their beds. So where does this leave we few, we disillusioned few, products of the baby-boomers who want to create a new wave. we want to pick up where our parents left off and fill in the holes they left open. we who want so desparately to believe we can change the world. we who are slowly but surely coming to realize our own mortality. we angry uppity ones who daily grow more aggitated inside our bottles that are just waiting to burst open. we who need to release. we who need to explode like an orgasm or fourth of july fireworks. where does this leave our semi-generation lost in the space our parents travelled to? i have no answer, just another question. did it ever occur to you that we might have already lost the revolution that never commenced? who are we fighting against? members of our own generation, the Xer's who think a sweat shop is the new gym that opened uptown. or worse, think the world bank is a good idea. or even worse, we're fighting against our parents. the people who tried to work from the inside out only to find they turned their outsides in. and who are we fighting for? the WHY kids and all the unborn interent babies who will thank our soicalist society for letting them download MP3s for free.

i worry about our future.

and here i am on my interent diary being a little hypocritical. hypocritical...hmmm...maybe ambivalent's a more appropriate word.

24 May, 2002 - 18:26

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